Hmm, gonna get ready for the football game here shortly.. Not really looking forward to it, but the rest of the weekend hell fucking yess. partyinn! all weekend longg!

I’m uploading some pictures of my senior year so far (:

So many memories already. Hmm, need to take more pictures more often.

Not really sure what’s going on with S. He said we need to talk.. and he said we had to talk in person, not over the phone. So, it’s not like I’m worried, but seriously.. I don’t know. I feel like we’re not even dating anymore. Things are just weird. >.<

Hmm..

Spent some QT with my homie Z today. Twas nice. (: We’re juss friends, but I love having company sometimes. Not SO company, but actual company.

I have the football game tomorrow, boo marching band ): But I guess I’ll survive. Hmm, I’m pretty tired for once..

Woke up late this morning, but overall it was a good day.

So honestly, S hasn’t really talked to me all day. Sure he’s at work, but he usually talks to me during the day even before that. I don’t even know right now.

Hmm, I’m exceptionally excited I only have band rehearsal from 6-8 instead of the usual six to nine. (: one less hour I have to spend there. (:

Hmm, idk.

I’ll probably update after band.

• switch laundry loads

• pick up dirty laundry

• wash summer bedding

• apply fall/winter sheets

• organize top of dresser

• clean mirror

• vacuum floor

sleep is difficult now-a-days. i sleep during the day, because there’s too much on my mind.

night is better.

hmm.

i think of damon, mostly. r.i.p dmks <3 i’m locking all the text’s he sent me, because i never want to lose them. ):

in other news, this bitch is fucking with my head so bad, i’m having fucking dreams about her. waking up pissed off is NOT a good solution to anything.

hmm, gonna try to lay down.

pleaseeee, let me sleep.

Good night Tumblr world.

I hope tomorrow is a better day, because I don’t know if I can take another day like this one. Everything seems to be falling apart.

I don’t even want to talk to the boy about my troubles. I feel like he’s got enough to deal with getting mentally prepared for his deployment in a few months.

*yawn* I’m really honestly not even tired.. but I need to get off here and attempt to sleep because otherwise, school is going to be hell tomorrow.

I’m contemplating saying a few words to A tomorrow. Fuck that dumb cunt. >.<

Hmmm.. trying to decided.

Again, good night everyone.

Sincerely,

the girl.

You guys are always bitching about how girls are “hoes” & how you can’t “find a good girl”. If you didn’t treat girls the way you do, maybe you wouldn’t get played. Maybe you’d get treated with the same respect if you didn’t automatically assume all girls were the same. Oh, and talking shit is really going to earn you brownie points in my book. *sarcasm*Sadly enough, I used to think you were my homies. I now know who my REAL homies are & I realized how i don’t need you in my life. I’ve decided that I’mma do me, and ain’t no one gonna stand in my way. As Anton Edwin Posch II says, ” Fuck the dumb shit.” That’s my new mentality in life, and I’m going to live my life by it because I’m tired of being pushed around, and put down because of who i am or what I do. The people I have in my life are in my life for a reason, and if I decided you aren’t going to be in my life, then I guess everying happens for a reason. Always remember fuck the dumb shit, and I’mma live my life as I please

That was my Facebook status.

Fuck.fuck.fuck.

I don’t even know. I’m so fed up with everyone’s bullshit.

all girls liked my status. mostly because, all the guys know it’s true.